I Loved You
I loved you.
I still do.
I know you never will forgive me.
I will never forgive you either.
If I knew what you were going to do,
I still would have been with you.
I loved you too much.
Too much that when you left,
I was destroyed beyond repair.
I was a china doll that had been mistreated by a child.
My heart was shattered,
Never to be fixed,
Never to be loved.
I was left in the wasteland of the lonely.
Hiding behind a mask of happiness,
I watched you move on.
That was when the pot started to boil.
Revenge was all I wanted.
The only think holding me back was my kindness.
I could never hurt you or anyone in general.
I had too much compassion.
Revenge turned to anxiety and depression.
You thought I was becoming dull and stupid,
You thought I was stupid.
And I believed you.
I let you push the limits.
I pulled my hair,
I scratched myself,
I wrote on myself about how stupid I was,
And how he was right.
Now I’m scared,
For I want to break this sadness.
I want to ask for forgiveness even though the answer will be no.
I will die a little inside,
For I love you.
And always will.
Now I ask you,
Do you love me?
For I have and will love you forever.